Insecure

When I first started this blog a few months ago, the name I picked was, "A Dreamers Mind." I'm a pisces baby and a huge dreamer. I spent the first 30 years of my life dreaming of the life I knew I could have. At age 31, I finally decided that it was time for me to do something about my dreams.

In less than two years, myself and my business partner, successfully launched a consulting company, a Life Coaching business with an Online Interactive Journaling website that is 100% safe, secure and private, it's not a blog. And coming this summer, hero+destiny, our new pet company. We have a black board filled with new ideas that we plan on taking to market some day.

Sometimes the ideas are over the top and require lots of capital to start-up, and other times the ideas are as simple as can be, and I like to give them away to other entrepreneurial people that are interested in creating their own thing. (I have two ideas right now if anyone wants them)

That was one of the reasons why I started this blog the other reason was to talk about anything, with no sensors, and no editing. I know I am not a good writer, my grammar has never been my strong point and my brain processes thoughts with a start and a finish, often times forgetting the middle, assuming that everyone will know what the middle part is. This is not always the case--actually, it's never the case unless you are a mind reader. I know this about myself, as do most of the people around me. We joke about it, "Bruno is having his own conversation again." LOL I thought long and hard about leaving comments on other blogs, because I know what I think and what I type are not always the same. But I decided to go ahead anyway, because how I write and what I say, with no sensors or editing is who I am.

Then the blog evolved to more of a life coaching toronto blog (Sorry for throwing in Toronto, it's a keyword for the coaching website that yields good results) and I started to talk about the various topics I study and work on. I also shared my own personal fears and phobias from public speaking, to crossing bridges, conquering one fear only to have a new one show up. I thought I knew the root cause of my fears, so I created a game out of conquering fears/phobias. The other day I left a comment on another person's blog, after I hit the submit bottom, I wanted to change my comment. That is when I realized that my comment didn't need to be deleted, that it was ok because, what I wrote and how I wrote it was truly me, not someone I'm pretending to be. That was the second time I had that thought. (sometimes it takes three times before I get it)

In the past few months, I've wanted to contact Breakfast Television to be a guest on their show, but I have a phobia of cameras. The thought of being behind a camera does paralyze me. I cannot do it--or so I thought. Then yesterday it came to me. The reason why I have fears, excluding Phobia's--my fear to speak, my fear to give seminars, my fear of t.v. cameras, Its because I am insecure and afraid of what other people with think of me if I make a mistake. I always thought you have to act a certain way, look a certain way, memorize everything you are going to say on t.v, etc. I never for one second thought that if maybe I act like myself just like I do when I'm working with my life coaching clients, with no scripts, no memorizing, just being me, exactly like when I leave comments and don't finish thoughts on other blogs, then I would have nothing to be insecure about, because it's the real me. It is ok to make mistakes on national television… Have you ever watched Lou Dobbs on CNN? Case and Point.

I'm contacting Breakfast Television via email later this morning - My phobia for t.v. cameras has just disappeared. I'm not afraid anymore-- no tension, no knots in my stomach, I feel like me when I’m meeting a client for the first time.

I am proud of what I've become. Bruno LoGreco Success Coach Toronto

Insecure